I've been meaning to write this out for awhile... And today, I just decided I might as well make a blog post about it. Even if no one reads it, I feel like I just need to get my feelings out.
When my husband and I got engaged, naturally we talked about having kids and how we would raise them. He mentioned that he'd really like me to stay at home with our babies, as that's what his mom did. Honestly, I'd never really thought of it before. My mom was a single mom, and she always had a job (or three). I always just saw myself working. The more we talked about it, the more exciting the prospect seemed... So we agreed that I would stop working when we had our first. I've actually become pretty excited about it!
I love my job. I'm an orthodontic assistant, and I've been working for the same doctor for almost 7 years. I can honestly, truly say that I really love my job. Of course, there are the days where I just want to scream, and I think that's true with ANY job... But I can really say that over all, I really do enjoy what I do. I get to work with kids, and I get to watch them grow up and blossom into beautiful, confident young adults. I get to see them turn from that shy, self-conscious, awkward kid into a beautiful, self confident young person. People say that braces are "all cosmetic", but they really do change lives. Just to see the change in people's outlook on life as their smile changes and they become more confident... It's just amazing! Of course, that may not be true with ALL of my patients, but I have seen some really amazing changes in the last few years of working along side my boss. I really feel like we change lives! Call it cheesy if you will... but I did say I love my job. ;)
Now, here we are, 12-ish weeks until my due date. I've officially given my boss heads up for my last day. July 19th. 8 weeks and 2 days from now. A month before our sweet baby girl makes her big debut. I'll be leaving the job that I love so much to take on a whole new role in life. A mom. I will have a little girl that I will spend all of my time with. She'll be my little side-kick... We'll go for walks, we'll dance and sing, we'll paint our toes... and we'll get to know each other really well at 2 am. I am so excited! But at the same time... I'm leaving my kids at work! I'm starting to see patients that I won't see again, and I have to break the news that this is the last time they'll see me. I've had a few patients cry when I tell them. I can't tell you how many times a day I now hear "We're going to miss you!" or "What are we going to do without you?" As much as it warms my heart, I want to cry at the same time... And I have. I have shed many tears over it. It really is bittersweet... I feel like I'm leaving the life I know behind for a new, exciting adventure... And I'm nervous. I'm nervous as hell, but at the same time, I can't wait. So many mixed feelings...
There's one thing I keep reminding myself... They can get another orthodontic assistant. Zoey won't get another mommy.
I hope you're ready for this, baby girl... We're both going to be learning as we go, but I think we can handle it.
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